sitting with an empty plate

Am I truly receiving? If I respond immediately, or even a beat before the speaker ceases, am I truly present for the message or am I formulating my response to deliver on cue? I sense my need for immediate response like a hungry child fearful of an empty plate. Piling on top of that which is already full robs nutrients and wastes food. Empty place offers space to digest and sense nourishment from within, to consciously choose (or not) whether more is necessary.

My adult will be joining me at the next meal. And that empty plate will sustain the intention to receive.

El Tango de Witness

At the beginning of Green Belt, I set an intention to meet and embrace my witness. This speaks to White Belt Principle 4, Stage 6 - witness/ manipulate, judge NOT! - observe. Imagine, if you will, the scene from Moulin Rouge "El Tango de Roxanne". This is what came to me as the sensation for my relationship with my witness. We move throughout the space as one and then part, sustaining the intensity through eyes as the bodies yearn for reconnection through touch. Each reconnection illuminates a bit more information and I sense my body responding and tweaking to receive more.

The most recent information was received during "No Quiero Nada Mas" from Aya, Carlos' latest routine. While stepping onto whole foot at 3 and 9, I was aware that what I was sharing wasn't what I was sensing. If I had shared what I sensed it would have sounded like this: step out at 3 and slide ribcage and elbow, as if hitting an energetic wall that limits your range of motion. I checked in the mirror and sure enough, that's what the move looked like. Here's where I truly sensed my connection with witness - I made the conscious choice to observe without judgment. I was then able to tweak from sensation rather than manipulate from judgment.

Now, where's my corset????